I have had a great day today with my daughter. It is fun watching her live life with so much gusto. She went to see "Bruce the Bug Guy" this morning and got to hold cockroaches and spiders. It made me swell with pride to see her holding a tarantula like a true lady. I simply must post pictures of this lovely experience.
Much to her disappointment, she was pulled away from the bugs and taken to her swimming class. She has come such a long way from the time she crawled along the edge of the pool, wailing at the top of her lungs because she didn't want to get in the water. Today she advanced to level 3! What an accomplishment! We are very proud of her.
Tomorrow's the big day. Complete thyroidectomy and right neck dissection. It will be a four hour surgery. I thought I wouldn't have any apprehension after the last surgery and knowing the good prognosis, but I do. I'm bothered that I have yet to learn not to be so anxious about things. Sometimes, I feel like a fickle little kid who goes from complete trust to terrified fear over the slightest upset to my agenda. It just makes me kind of nervous to have someone partially decapitating me and cutting things out of my neck for four hours while I am totally out of commission. It's a control thing again. I have to keep letting go. Please continue to pray for peace in my heart. I am convinced that I was as calm as I was last time because of the prayers surrounding me. God is good, faithful, and sovereign. I will rest in knowing that.